blackdarkness

let go

2006-05-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

i'll let go whatever i feel right now. I give it to God and i won't think of it. Time really will heal. I know and i trust.

Enough

2006-05-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

when uve got enough u have really got enough...i dun wan anymore nonsense i've had enough of some people. There is no limit of tolerance for this. I know keepin everythin in and bein implosive is bad but i really dont care...had enough...i just wanna scream argh!!

2006-05-06T10:18:00.000+08:00

i think u guys think im sian with everythin hahah im not juz sian wid bloggin..hahah yepp..like right now i dont feel like bloggin either XP maybe later hahah

sleeeepy

2006-04-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today was rather hecitc in a way.... had combine schs trials yeah got in to last 20 aiya sure cannot make it to e team ah..but dont really mind...it doesnt matter to me....after that helped out at nsl and all...for like 2 to 8 so sian ah...cip )= yupp finally back home thn tmrw go drums haiz sian sia....bleh...

2006-04-21T16:17:00.000+08:00

haha i took a tickle test and my signature colour is pink?! ahh...so weird haha..yupp yay we won e finals great job you guys! yeah this week was alrite nothin exciting except for finals.Got combine schools selection trials..aiya cannot make it one la i also don wanna go...haha lolx...im bored come back home early also dont feel shiok sia...aiya got nz trip bleh so tired already =( ill blog later (=

2006-04-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

Your signature color is Pink Chiffon
There's nothing saccharine about you — your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm — but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place!

happy birthday andy(=

2006-04-16T12:33:00.000+08:00

haha..happy birthday day(=...this post is for you lor cuz its your birthday haha...okay lets go way back to the beginning of 2005.haha lets see...we were partners for that english thingy where we're supposed to introduce each other..haha.err lemme see u liked limp biscuit born 16 april haha i cant rmb e rest...okays at that time i thought u were ook la but didnt quite like u that much personally haha u were juz another classmate that i didnt give a damn abt hahaha...okays thn err rmb national day?supposed to design a shirt? haha thn i asked you to help me make i begged you haha and u did e whole thing haha i think thats when our friendship really started haha err cuz i thought u were damn nice la help me make my whole shirt hahaah...yupp i guess since thn we started hangin out a bit haha ...always go music oom and you'd hog the drums and u'd also play the piano...that chinese song that was super nice hahaha...err yeah then we'd always sit together and blast music in class...haha wait ure deaf on your left and me on my right correct? haha so we blasted our other ears hahaha so stupid lolx...oh yeah..you were my home econs partner! hahha im surprised we didnt burn down the whole place...hahaha...err..thn got wad else ah? you me Queenie and Chris became close haha er oh yeah! we went watch movies rite? hahahaa so fun!! then after that...err oh yeah movie marathon lolx that was fun we were messin arnd e whole time ah was super funn...then after that u left e school )= then e four of us went for a movie and exchange gifts haha err after that...we werent close anymore ah then i think i had this grudge against u hahaha...yupps and now we're alright haha...well, i juz wanna tell u that uve been an awesome best friend to me for err i donno how long ah..hahaha but yeah your friendship means alot to me..happy birthday dude(=

i dont like titles

2006-04-15T10:05:00.000+08:00

i don't like having titles haha...hmm i think i gotta change my skin its been here far too long i think i'll change it later hahah....im a pig its 10 and im still on my bed haha i don wanna get up hahaha....this week was alright...We got through to the finals! playing against CHIJ toa payoh...but e whole school is comin and it feels kinda weird =( haha nvm i'll try my very best and so will e team and together we will pull through((= i'm supposed to go out with lenice soon....yawn i'm tired! hahaha.....blog laters(=

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2006-04-08T10:49:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry tammie(= haha my bad lols....I dont feel like bloggin feeling a little sick now....

2006-04-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

okay ive een online since like forever but nothing...ahh..i'm like soo bored and irritated as in i think tammie has a prob wid me, shes showin it but aint saying it i donno la....tammie if ure reading this, im sorry but wads wrong tell me! ahh im so darn pissed no mood

broken life

back

2006-04-01T16:21:00.000+08:00

okay like i had to stay in school till saturday i wanted to come home so badly aiyoyo...but yeah had this training camp in school cuz im going for a new zealand adventure camp...yeah it was alright i juz cant wait to go to new zealand haha all those adventures...now i so sian i gotta go do my homework loaded with it... haiz aiya blog later...

2006-03-26T15:28:00.000+08:00

i'm glad to see that my 12 march entry encouraged you guys((: even until now some people are agreeing and well it is true you see.Our lives are precious and they are fragile we have to build a strong foundation so nothing can shake us! We have to keep giving to others don't take, GIVE. you know i heard of this story, a true one by mr david grant. The first time he went to india on a mission trip, it was just after a war between pakistan and india.Many were lest homeless, and familyless. He saw one girl, her "clothes" was a piece of garbage bag and she had a baby brother.
This girl was about five years old. Many churches ect had food to give to some children however the food was very limited..This girl has hunger written all over her face and as she collected her portion of the food,(not knowing if she would ever get any more) she fed her food to her baby brother. Tears flowing from her eyes..Staring at the fod. She was overwhelmed with hunger but she didnt eat any she kept feeding and feeding her brother until there was no more left. This my friend is true love. A type of giving that not many of us can do. This girl gave evrything she had left..in faith. She knew she probabaly wouldnt get any food but she didnt want her baby brother to suffer. I think that is true selflessness don't you?

2006-03-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

okay im not so tired today so i can type abt my week.Okay this week was awesome(: i was relating more with God and all yeaa..made my week gr8..Especially my birthday..i love all my teammates they were all so sweet..i love u guys lots..you guys really make me thank God for the valuable friendships i have.All your sweet cards and all...was lovely thanks so much..and of course e chocolates were yummy...this comprimises for my horrible birthday last year but thats e past..thanks again..And of course thank you tammie! it was a lovely letter!! haha yepps and thanks you guys from church your sweet words have added colour to my life(: my birthday was really wayy better than i expect other than the white card i got for being late...but im not gonna let it affect me((: life goes on juz gotta make sure im not late next time((: well today service was awesome and all yeaa..it was great..well thats all and thanks once again for making my birthday memorable i love you guys to bits!!

my life feels colourful with you in it(:

yawn

2006-03-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

i donno why but im like getting tired and all rite now but since tammie wants me to blog abt her i will ((: she gave me a totally totally cute letter!!! it was like so superr nice thanks so much tammie...youve been a totally awesome friend to me((: such a sweet sweet girl im do glad i met you!! haha you a friend that is always there for me to lean on and ill always be there for you...you know i think i might as well write u a testi! haha lolx but im so nice rite? ahha jkjk well like i said it would be a short one im too tired...if this doesnt please the great almighty tammie than i shall type a longer one tomorrow!!!!((:

:)

2006-03-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

ahhh stupid irritating thing i juz accidentally deleted everything i typed and it was really long aiya..irritating nonsense haiz..okay i dont care this one is gonna be way shorter haha...okay im only blogging cuz SOMEONE wants me to...im a lazy bum hahaha...okay, erm today the duke came to my school, was okay la...kinda boring but no complaints(: erm...didnt do much...after that went for lunch with ira queenie hin ann bhaama hafiz afiq and clearence?(not sure) yupp u wanted to go shopping after tt but queenie need to go home so i go back wid her...i cant even use my priviledge of freedom...oh wells maybe i dont need to now haha...erm..after tt came home then slacked for a bit thn juz went to orchard..back now..haha talkin to queenie on e phone now haha so fun((: whee hahah...lolx well i got nothing much to say now...and im juz hoping that arsenal loses cuz i don wanna wear a paper bag all my life haha...lolx(((:

just keep it going

2006-03-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

okay today itself was a tough battle.Firstly we had a match with the seniors and im like thinking yeah okay wadeva play then play la...but oh goodness i didnt know they were so physical..as in like yeah they're physical but not that physical.. i mean mel uses her butt to push me i'm like thinking wad da hell is ur problem.. like we all taking it easy and she's like so aggressive..as in aggresiveness is good but until u wanna almost injure ur junior player?? i mean like yeah we sec 2s know tt e sec3s don really like us in da school and all but no need to be like that rite? aiya... but of course got some very nice seniors like beverly christina and all that are nice...and of course mel is nice too at times... well i guess theres one thing i learned from this game is that no matter how much ur opponents try to bring u down u gotta get back up and fight fight fight even if it means you're going to die(= and i had tt cross country run, i havent ran in like three weeks then suddenly run somemore not my age, run e open team i was like damn crapped up...look at me running like some idiot there la i also donno why..aiya...nvm la i'm only doing this for the fun of it...(= Well at least now i've gone through major defeat in running,something i never experianced much and i should go through tt feeling and i thank God fot that..Well i still got chance for e nationals i juz really hope i run wid my age(= haha...makes life easier...Well yeah tts abt it..

my life

2006-03-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

i think im quite selfish i hurt people and i dont care, its not that i dont care but i donno, i care but i just, i donno i just ignore it..Though theres this feeling in my heart and stuff i ignore it and i guess thats not good is it..Well i guess the answer is easy, i juz gotta be more sensitive to others.As in they say im nice but i shoot them sometimes and i feel bad and al...yeah...well i got alot of homework which i havent been doing this week...oh man...

This feeling wont go away*

life

2006-03-12T19:30:00.000+08:00

i keep going on about depression and sadness,loneliness and unhappiness. But these aren't the feelings i am feeling. Satan only wants us to think our lives are horrible and every thing around us really sucks. But things in our lives aren't that bad. I'm like a little kid. I'm so afraid to let go and take the step of faith for God..I just couldn't let go but now i will. how am i going to be a good example to others if i cant even be happy about my life. I have once again found the reason the smile. If you think life sucks stop and take a look around you. Think of those children from africa, india nepal, mongolia, canada and so many other countries. Those kids would do anything to want to live our lives. But how about us? we ALL take our lives for granted and think we have the worst lives ever. We are so pampered. We think its the end of the world when the person u like doesnt like u.. Think of those unfortunate children, they have no love, money home and food yet they struggle to survive and they dont even think its the end of the world. They grip on to that last bit of hope within their grasp and reach. So i encourage any of you reading this right now. Don't get depressed so easily and dont get hurt so simply our lives are wonderful and they are worth living for(:

2006-03-10T17:18:00.000+08:00

HAHA I'M SUCH A LAZY BUM THAT I DONT EVEN WANT TO BLOG HAHA AND IM SO LAZY TO SWITCH E CAPS OFF AHAHAHHA...WELL THIS WEEK WAS ALRIGHT QUITE NICE LA...WON NORTH ZONE IT WAS AN OKAY GAME THOUGH I PLAYED SUPER BADLY THOUGH YEAH..THEN I THINK MY MODULE MARKS AREN'T GONNA BE GOOD OH NO....AHHH....I GOTA BUCK UP MANX...AIYA, EVERYTHING AROUND ME ISNT GOING RIGHT I FEEL SO IRRITATED HAIZ....

2006-02-26T13:34:00.000+08:00

okay i went for drum lessons today.Actually, each time i go for drum lesson each week i keep getting more and more sick of it.Well today i just realised i get sick of it cuz i dun practice and i act like its a chore and i dont try hard enough. Well today my passion to ;ay the drums just got boosted so once again im back on the craze(: yay haha yeah im shifting classes so my lessons gonna start at 12 on sundays well thats better so i can sleep in a little longer haha yeah. oh man my knee is seriously hurting me alot now and its super super painful oh darn and need to go and run after this haha/haiz oh wells. im off now wheeeeee

saturday whee

2006-02-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

okay today was a lovely day. I guess whgood tooat i learnt in service really helped me. Although it was a simple and basic lesson the most simple things of life are so easily forgotten.Yeah and the power of prayer is amazing. The power of prayer brings you closer to God it helps u understand(: Those who can speak in tongues should do so everyday its out bridge to God. He knows what we want but we must declare it in prayer and everything will some out fine(: i guess my stress and all e past month was cuz i never really commited my problems to God and i just kept it in and in and in till i couldn't take anymore. Now i feel free i feel great i feel like me(:Fuel track after service taught me alot we learnt about lots of stuff that i'll prob post abt later haha.nitezz

nashii

2006-02-25T13:52:00.000+08:00

im back to my normal self haha yeah life feels great now(: everythings fine yeah my i guess i dont really have much to blog haha.my normal self doesnt have much to say lols.laters

my week

2006-02-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

okay this week was fine had tests and all yea juz joined 2B they're a great class. Okay well this week was fine but i cant pretend that today was fine.This is like the worst day ever probably and if youre readin this can u juz not ask me if im okay n wadeva i juz need to vent my anger and u re prob not gonna understand so yea argh dont u juz hate it when some people dont even seem to care i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate you i hate you i hate you. arghhh i feel so pissed and hurt at the same time because if ine stupid thing that happened gosh i feel so misunderstood sometimes too. i feel so irritated at everything around me now i cant stand anything everything i juz wanna go somewhere im alone and free and i wanna cry and i wanna scream at the top of my lungs and not care about anything. I always advice people not to keep things in but i dun even practice wad i preach i don like talkin bout why im sad depressed and wadeva i juz want someone to cheer me up and ill get over it myself.and i guess keepin things inside not only hurts u but hurts others too. Like after holding back a particular annoyance for a long time ill sometimes blow up like a volcano and hurt people.And the whole week somethings been bothering me i dont know wad and i don care wad but all i know is that everything around me seems so unreal and i feel so unreal too i dunno wads wrong and thats wad bugs me.I feel lousy everywhere i go. I feel so small every place i enter nothing seems rite and evrything is juz not in place and i feel hopeless and useless and im sick of everything and anything and i juz donno anything anymore. I totally hate this to the core.

wheeeeeeeee

2006-02-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

okay couldnt think of a title so whee shall do haha.okayz im like ajor bored now so im prob gonna study for science i juz toally love chem haha but i aint THAT good at it haha all those 2B pple way smarter la haha.yeah juz had church.Wow was a great experiance and fuel wasnt that boring for once but still quite sian la.But service was awesome seriously la.Was so nice too bad queenie and chris weren't there.Haha valentines day comin gonna buy roses for my church friends((: ahha yeah lolx. Valentines day is awesome well if u got someone to spend it with la ahah.Yeah.cant wait to go back to school all mitest coming((: haha

okay major boredom rite now blog later haha

Back home

2006-02-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

Well this week wasnt that bad was quite alrite. Yeah erm had a game on thursday seriously sucked.Wad else erm sch was fine i probs screwed my math test and eng test. yeah pretty much okay week yah. Err got promoted to 2B gonna join them next week i dunno if its a good thing or a bad thing but God knows best for me and i trust him. Oh manx im gonna miss Queenie like crazy!!! sigh but well got Ira!! Tammie!! so many others ahahah. yeah.but prob gonna be at da bottom of the class la gosh no matter how hard i may try im juz still gonna be at the bottom i mean im not smart juz do my work whereas they are both smart AND do their work.Sighs but ig uess it'll spur me on la wid them there haha.Well we'll jjuz see then i dunno.haha
yeah and now all my 7 team mates r going for the new zealand trip and im the only idiot left.Doesnt that rock.Argh if only i could hpst yeah well its too late oh wells maybe i can have extra training! haha could have some one on one training or something! yeah well no roomies at all haha.Yeah morn sleep ins maybe i can catch up on my runs! but oh manx dinner breakfast lunch all alone ):. Nvm im a brave girl i can handle it! yeah rite c'mon im gonna be lost without all of em.All my darlings all gone): nvm maybe theyll all miss me lots and i'll missed 7 times more muahahaha okay im lame haha. im sure ill be fine on my own.haha

I got Jesus yay!!

back to school

2006-01-31T17:21:00.000+08:00

okay i know i hate yellow but my blog got no yellow so im just gonna put it in yellow hhaa.Well sweet sweet tammie ahha.Haha yupp anyway schools not that bad got all e lovely juniors that r always there so sweet and my teammates of course their all my darlings(: yeah well ive done my ork so juz gotta relax and take it all easy yepp Go nash(: haha.Well that means ill be bloggin less haha who cares anyways no one really reads it except you! ahahha lolx .Yeah and by e way i like my haha to be spelt wrongly like ahah or hhaa or wadeva haha lolx i donno juz like to amkes me feel more like me((: i know im weird hahaha but who cares ahah.Well im bloggin so i can delay time but time doesnt seem to go faster.Oh manx i realy wanna buy e touch typin programme i think touch typing is fun ahaha yepp it is wad then can multi task and all and get things done twice as fast hahah.Okay well i better go don wanna be late((:

I love you whos readin this i love you lots ahha((:

xxxxxxxxnashii((:

2006-01-31T12:36:00.000+08:00

hello! haha. i'm tammie. blogging for nash (:
yesyes. so we're going back to school tonight. cny has ~~ended~~ :( holidays have ~~ended~~ :( and hell week is starting. hahaha. oh noooo. and i have to go back at 3 this afternoon cuz got training. aiya.
hmmm. i shall write abit about nash! :D yay!
nash is the bestest friend anyone could ever have. yep. she's always there for you and you can always count on her for sound advice. she's also much taller than me :( she also loves God and has faith in Him ((:
haha. i think that's about all. yup.
see nash, i just graced your blog with my post (x hahahaha joking!
anyway, love ya! bye takkaire cya in school!

then her life started to change

2006-01-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

ok i officially have no prejudice against tamil movies anymore haha.Or tamil guys for that matter some are quite alrite.Well maybe only e movie stars hahaha.Yupp yupp.Haha had loads of fun my tamil teacher was like sleeping and snoring!! oh gosh it was so freakin nice la donno how he could sleep lolx.Yupp hung out wid divya piriya and bhaama haah was fun then divya and priya left yupps.haha.Oh but bhaama din.Haha bhaama was like wanna go causeway and i was like yea sure hahah so casual lolx.Yupp we went there hung out haha it was lots of fun and we had a nice chat.And there like gross indian guys callin us and whistling probably tryin to attract pretty bhaama ahaha.lolx.yuppz anyway it was a whole lot of fun.And i realised something u know so wad if te guy i like doesnt know i like him.Rite now at this age all i need is my friends and family.I should be making them happy and proud of me.Yeah and if the guy comes along my way then yeah i have my "prince" ahaha lolz but if not so what.I mean it doesnt matter haha.Yeah so i m officially outta my depression state haha.Who cares abt guys plus they are like two years less immature then girls hahaha lolx im kiddin but yeah.Haha and oh yeah u know whats so cool is that after my post e red one about how i felt about e guy yupp tons of girls were tellin me that they felt the same and they're all my age so i guess im not an idiot feeling that way.And you know what to all the girls out there.WE ROCK and guys arent worth our tears they should only be there for our happy times haha.Yeah i officially psychoed myself ahahah.yay(: lets juz hope it lastes((:

unwritten:unsaid:untold

2006-01-30T11:44:00.000+08:00

i guess bens rite(:thanks ben you came at just the right time and made things better.I guess thats Gods gift for you the gift of words.Haha i like talking to you ben haha.Yeah well i guess i'm not gonna let this affect me.And i'm just gonna tell him and go on happily with my life.I mean its not like i want him to like me back just that i don wanna keep it from him.He's like my best friend that knows everything except maybe we'r not that close anymore driftin apart.Probably my fault that we're drifting.Yeah anyway.i juz helped ira wid her blog.I pretty much screwed it up yah.Sorry ira!!im a black person dont like colours very much ahha.Kz now i gotta go watch some movie woth my teacher and all.TAMIL movie havent seen one in like....forever! ahaha yeah and all e other indian students frm our school.Then after that go Queenies house.Busy day sighs and tomorrows e last day of e hols.YAY! finally im sick of e hols man.Study study study like no tomorrow sia.haiz.Well that prob wad all e non chinese are doin haha.Laters

i feel so stupid

2006-01-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

i feel so stupid.I'm like wad almost 14 and im so emotionaly fragile cuz of one stupid guy.Its like im studyin happily and doing my own buiness and when i got nothing to do i'll think of him and everything around me juz fades away and devastation takes over me.I'm so young yet im feeling this way and i feel so stupid.I donno where when or how but i fell for him and i wanna get over him get him outta my system but hes a good fren n i cant do anything.I feel so hopeless.I know he doesn't feel the same way about me. I don wanna tell him cuz im afraid our friendship will be affected.I juz feel so so so stupid rite now!! as in i dont care about guys they so immature and annoying and i got better things to think of than think of him yet he just comes to my mind.I wish i could lock him outta my mind but i cant.Every little thing he does affects me.And i feel stupid posting this.As in i just cant let it out to anyone yet im posting this that EVERYONE can see but i just can't hold it in any longer.Why is it that i can help others but i cant help myself.I guess its true that the people who help the most are the ones who need the most help.My friends are all so sweet and are so willing to help me comfort me and shower me with love and its so sweet.But no matter what i do i cant get rid of this feeling and i cant express to anyone exactly how i feel not even the ones i trust the most.Near or Far i cant tell anyone.Why? and God is there for me he definately is there.But then why cant this stupid feeling juz go away and burn.I just want it to go away.But i know im not the only one who feels that.My closest friends feel the same like roanne lydia and all but the thing is that the guy likes them.Mines juz some sad case.Argh i hate the fact that this guy existed argh.i feel like im living the worst day over and over again.

Boring

2006-01-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

wow my friends are all so nice.They care so much that makes me really happy.Ialways cared for them but never knew if they cared back haha.yupp and Everyone thinks im high.maybe cuz i was so low that now im back to normal so it seems high haha.but im just normal.but im super happy cuz i finished all of my homework isnt that great?haha.yupp.yupp.im a good girl well i still got some editing to do for shakespeare.haha.but still its fun.oh yeah and ira made a really nice collage of couples in my team haha.well i was in it hahah.although we're not a couple juz really good friends haha.yupp.erm my gosh today was like so boring haha.whole day do nothing but study rest study rest.Sighs oh wells theres nothing to do so yeah.haha.supposed to go for some chinese new year lunch thing wid my dad but din wanna go haha.Well thats my borin life

2006-01-28T15:01:00.000+08:00

okay im all officially cheered up thanks to lenice and gis haha.They make me happy.Donno how they do it but i guess them talkin to me makes me happy already((:well that prob isnt probably solved yet but i think i should let the problem fix itself((: haha.Oh yeah and of course not forgettin andy who made me laugh so much i just couldn't stop haha.Donno where we think of the crap we talk about haha.Many its all natural!! haha.okay i officially hate shakespeare if he were alive i'd give him a smack for being so complicated!!Need to do a research on him sighs an i can hardly find anything!!!haha how pathetic is that?Yeah haha well i guess some hardwork will do me some good.Gis and lenice are helpin me with my project ahhh i love them so much!! okay im super happy now((: at least theres one happy post in my blog haha(:

2006-01-28T12:05:00.000+08:00

haha lenice thanks for tagin that at least i know im not only one feeling it.I guess i know why i've been so sad cuz the same problem keeps coming right up to my face and i keep running away from it and avoiding it.The only person that can fix it is myself.I want to fix it but i just cant.As in i can but i dont want to.I'm scared that if i fix it, i'll ruin it and everythings gonna juz crash and fall.Well i donno and i haven't tried but im afraid to and i feel confused.Theres no point teling anyone what my problem is cuz they cant help and cant do anything so now im even lower then ever.And this is just so depressing and i feel so screwed up.i know what to do and i can do it but my heart stops me.and i feel so sad.i woke up happily and now im juz so freakin sad and i cant even confide in anyone.i juz cant.Well maybe one person but hes got so many problems i cant even talk to him.Sad case and depressing.Well if i think about it maybe my life isnt as depressing as somepeoples lives.I can juz let go of everything and be carefree, maybe ill do that.Let me go and cheer myself up.

2006-01-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

okay currently feeling bored.Chinese new year k thats like 4 days with nothing to do how sad is that man.Well i guess i can juz keep studying and studying la but so sad.And my friends cant go out.why?duh cuz its chinese new year.haha.but yeah.time to catch wid all e smaties at the top of the class haha.lame.queenie had the pic of me and her form awards nite but she ripped herself off somehow so now its a pathetic picture of me and a ripped pic on the other side.how sad.sighs.we had a retarded smile on haha.so now i look like a senial freak man.haha.but i totally love my dress!!hee.okay im gettin annoyed by the minute.I think im like major PMSin manx my mood keeps swingin i keep gettin happy then sad then happy then sad then i get stressed and then pissed then stressed then pissed whats wrong with me oh man i hate this to the core man.Like just a while ago i was so happy now im juz so pissed and annoyed i donno why this has been happening lately i feel so annoyed gosh.Doesnt my life juz totally rock.my goodness i really cant stand this sia.haiz/well theres seriosly nothing i can do la.Gosh .sigh.well thats my life.now i juz wish i could sit in a corner again and stay there forever and never ever ever come out.oh yeah and if ure readin this pls don try to console me im fine juz don want anyone to talk about it to me.

2006-01-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

haha this is to make my blog look less empty haha.hop this makes you happy andy(:
Took it from tammie((:

In no particular order,list down 3 people you talk to online,4 people you see at school,2 teacher,3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox
1)lenice
2)syar'iman
3)Tammie
4)Ira
5)ben
6)bhaama
7)Geraldine
8)mdm ng
9)ms tan
10)christopher
11)andy
12)hanafi
13)Giselle
14)Shalina
15)Queenie
what do you think of number 4?
Ira's an awesome girl one of the greatest friends i could have
how nice is number 6?
extremely nice! sweet bhaama(:
honestly , if number 8 met an accident , what would i do ?
oh my gosh thats so sadistic.No more maths!!! haha no la be damn sad actually
will i ever fall for number 11?
erm....bad qns manx
what sport would i play with number 12?
haha soccer la haha but i donno how to play but im sure he'll teach me
how much do i like number 2?erm donno him that much prob enjoy talkin to him haha
will 13 and 7 make a good couple?not unless lesbianity is in style hahaha
do i hate number 9?
no la shes nice(:
would 14 one day kill me?
maybe if i disturb her alot or found a new best friend haha
who do i like more ? 3 or 10 ?tammie shes my girlfren!!!.
get 5 people to do this thing!!
nah too lazy haha

2006-01-27T18:58:00.000+08:00

This week was awesome had lots of competition and stuff and training was fun too!! haha shafinas is damn nice my awesome junior shes like my best friend! haha we have like so much in common!!! haha. awesome girl!!! haha i love hearin her stories and she actually listens to all my stories too!! oh yeah and too bad andy i like my fonts small i want people to suffer readin it!!! hahahaha.its juz too bad bro haha.All e comepetition were fine but i seriously sucked in da last game cannot shoot cannot move play for wad sia.oh well i guess eveyone has a bad day.you know i think its super annoyin when people tell me what to unless ure an adult or u say it nicely la but i hate it when people juz command me to do stuff am i a dog.bloody hell.come on la get a life.but well some people are just like that its not like i can do much anyway.Haha but i dont really care cuz im extra high rite now!!! haha and its for no good reason and dats juz lame but deep down inside somethings not rite but i dont care once again hahaha.yeah and well...i think i screwed up my history test.Great job! haha.yupp yupp.and andy says my blogs empty wad do u expect i juz made it gosh! but if it makes u happy i'll make it more full.donno how im gonna do that but i'll juz do it((: and now im soooo bored i haha okay i gotta go for dinner.be rite back

2006-01-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

hey guys,
well i guess i finally made my blog haha.its about time(:.well thank goodness denise helped me or else i wouldnt have made it at all haha. okay drum class today totally rocked i had like so much fun.We were doing rock beats and playin it with da rock songs was so fun.It was really tough at first but after practicing and practicing it started to become so much easier.I totally love it(: but one thing thats so annoying is that class starts at 11 means i can sleep till really late.So depressing. Well other than drum lessons todays most likely one of the most depressing days of my life.my beloved broke my heart haha.You know it seriously sucks to have no one to know who you like and all.And when u wanna talk about him its juz so hard.Everythings stuffed deep down inside and when he breaks your heart theres no one to turn to.Sucks rite?thats exactly how i feel this very moment.I guess its my fault rite as in im da one who doesnt wanna tell anyone and even though one or two people know i guess it still sucks.But well thats life and well guys arent everything.And anyway though i like him i dont plan on being with him its not very wise to get into a relationship at this age maybe next year.Well depends la if can handle a relationship now and its healthy then y not.But there are more important things my studies-wow its like a whole load man but i love it esp. chem i totally love it. and my netball competitions everywhere man its fun but stressful.Then theres jesus the person that brightens my day like sunshine in the darkness.He's always there for me and always listening so then again i guess thats what counts and i guess i should be there more for others and help them which is precisely what my new years resoulution was(: oh yeah and thanks hin ann for cherin me up it helped quite a lot(: okay now im happy again.I'm just a person who cant be sad for long i always stuff my feelings aside anyway i dont really care haha.i know its bad but i cant do much. haha.okay im officially happy again haha.thanks yi qing made me feel better thanks for caring(: iloveyouguys(: well im gonna go to school with queenie soon.haiz blog so plain haha well duh first day rite?haha okay well thats about it gonna stop here.Cyaz(: